The Colour of my Dreamz

Moving On. . .

2005-12-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

It s high time to move on!!! People, my new site has been set up!!! This site will remain but updates will not be done here anymore. I am also leaving behind the tag board here, thus, only leave comments under the new site!!

Go to : http://thegreenattic.blogspot.com in future!!!

Idling.

2005-12-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

We went to the Singapore Zoo on Monday. I enjoyed myself. Just a pity that most of those animals were having their beauty sleeps when we wanted to take shots of them. Nevertheless, it was still fun, observing them. The elephants were cute. The horses were handsome. The lions were noisy. The kangaroos still hasn arrived. I will consider posting up some of the pictures some time soon. *winks

I got the idea of shifting this site. I don know why, but I feel like moving on from here. To another brand new site. When I set up my new site, I will link up this site too, so regular visitors, no need to fret. =)

The Imperfect.

2005-12-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

I watched Perhaps Love last Friday, starring Jacky Cheung, Takeshi Kaneshiro and Zhou Xun. It is highly unlikely that you would be disappointed with this musical film. Cheung s vocal, Takeshi s good looks and Zhou s beauty are enough to keep your eyes on the screen throughout. The structure of the making of the movie is such that a love story unfolds a musical film within a film. The trick to follow the scenes closely is to note the different hairstyles adorned on Zhou s head as times move to and fro from the past to the present and vice versa, between real life and the role she was playing in the musical film. My only discontent is the story ending. Shouldn Takeshi and Zhou end up together?
Takeshi had appeared in the local papers recently, besides promoting Perhaps Love, there had been a little uproar among the journalists. On Takeshi s attitude problems. What a pity such a perfect face had to match with a weird mood and personality. This goes to prove that no one on this Earth is perfect.

Love and money.

2005-12-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

I see how bankruptcy is so closely linked to laziness and inertia to get part time work, plus, some sheer luck definitely. With Xmas, CNY, V Day and birthdays around the corner, I hope I can file for bankruptcy, turn over a new leaf and start earning my own bucks from scratch. Ever since I got rejected by a government body for a part time position, and plain unwillingness AND bad coincidence of turning down a job agencys offer to help, I was thrown right to the bottom of a well, unable to pick myself up.
On the other hand, I was deep inside grinning away at the chance of complete free life, allowing lazy worms to multiply.
Alas, tell me how to meet my leisure expenses. And the little assets I hope to acquire. This is, thus, so far, my major headache this vacation. Typical. *throws up hands helplessly.* I need the Vitamins M desperately, yet naively hoping they would drop from the blue sky.
I dream of being a tai tai. If fantasizing allows more creative spaces, I would gladly be a princess, where all my monetary needs will be sponsored, generously. In reality, I didn find myself a handsome rich prince. Lol. I found myself a cute looking pauper, who would only want to knock my head furiously to wake me up.
To be honest, I seriously think people who are not financially independent have not much rights to talk about love. It is painful, and torturing not to be able to buy something that you know would make him or her happy. Then again, love should not be measured in monetary terms.
We were sort of in the conversation of how often girlfriends should be pampered, by boyfriends, with showers of gifts and blah. I think we didn meet eye to eye. He strongly believed that girls should only be pampered on special occasions. While I thought that should be done as often as possible, especially when she is someone with frequent insecure feelings. It is only necessary. Being pampered ONLY on special occasions, seems too rational a behavior when two persons are in love. I don know. What do you say?

Messed up?

2005-12-03T10:20:00.000+08:00

Part of my supposedly changed life got botched. But perhaps soemthing else great coming my way.

Holiday life.

2005-11-29T18:33:00.000+08:00

Life starts to get kind of boring. Everyday, its either da telly, papers, sleep, shop or simply slacking around. Perhaps this is the kind of life busy people out there are yearning for. . .but this is getting too much for me. It struck me that man will never be contented with themselves and what they have. Sometimes, human nature seems so ugly.
Fortunately, im gonna get a fulfilling life this Thursday onwards! =)

I miss the TP gang. Still hasn found a good day to gather all of us. Was msning with Dor earlier on this morning & realized that she is still at dorm, tied up with many many activities and blah. What a slacker I am! She was lamenting that her schedule for this entire week is full already. Oh my.

Honestly, I find myself sick of the way is suppose to be. Or rather, the way my life is. Its neither exciting nor colorful. . . Perhaps its all because he is not always around to brighten my day. . .im learning hard to get use to it. . . It could be I am pushing myself too hard in the process and things got worse. . .i don know. Its way past time for me to understand some stuff and figure out everything.

I was doing some friendstering, clicking on several profiles and so on. And got a rather rude discovery. There is this stylish lady, who used to be in a relationship with a guy. I had always thought they were a perfect match. But the truth is, they had broken up, I guess not too long ago. Its amazing how 2 person actually get attracted to each other, get together, do so much things together, get to know each others families and friends. And suddenly discover he or she is not the right one. Overnight, everything built up from scratch will be tore down, either with relief, or much tears and heartache. This brings me back to some linkage to my previous entry on Prime. I think it is so important to give someone your blessings if he or she decides to get married and stay committed in a long term relationship. Its god darn difficult to find that someone whom you can identify with, have feelings for, able to understand each other thoroughly and live together under the same roof for the rest of your life.

A little part on myself, I find it difficult to survive arguments and cracks in a relationships. If you know what I mean, after engaging in a big row with your loved one, can you love him or her as before as if nothing had happened? Perhaps its positive if one party has generously forgiven any wrong done and sincerely opens the heart again. What if its negative? Its a sure thing the entire buildup gonna fail someday. I wanna be one who is generous of course. . .unless the hurt done is so severe that I find it impossible to forgive and forget.

So much being shared, hope all of us put in our little efforts to make things work out! And to those who still hasn found the ideal one, its no hurry but do open up if you feel that he or she is within your vicinity. *winkz

Prime.

2005-11-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

People often say that age difference between a couple is no big deal. But in Prime, it is because of the age difference. . .that the man couldn give what the woman wants, thus they decided not to be together. . .even though love exists. . .Its sad.
Feelings may not be the sole factor in a relationship. . .it encompasses too many other issues. . .

Wildness

2005-11-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I decided to forsake All Is Vanity. I wasn even near halfway through, but it had sort of killed my initial interest in the book. I should start on the other book I guess. . . its Dreams Fly. A chinese novel.
I don always give up easily on reading a book, but while I was at it last night, the so called bad news his phone call brought caused me doses of frustration and disappointment. After that, whatever I read refused to make sense. Thus, the decision.
I like techno & dance music. Whenever im in high spirits or on the verge of depression. New friends, & perhaps even old friends of mine cant understand why I like such genre of music. I cant exactly explain, but I really enjoy! An excellent hybrid tool for keeping me happy & negative feelings management, I must say. May not be compatible with my image, but do I care?
As long as one is happy, who cares about compatibility?

I got hold of Style: mag today. *Grins.

All Is Vanity

2005-11-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

Its an extremely cold day. Slept a lot. I have started reading a bit of the library book I got hold of yesterday, All Is Vanity. And been working on the skin. Besides those, practically did nothing much. Despite accomplishing some items on my to do list, I still havent done much domestic stuff yet. Sometimes, I really do think im hopeless.
Still waiting for good part time opportunities to pass my time. . . . and for dazzed to finish off her last paper before we could hang out again. That day, we were on the conversation about guys and updating each other on recent stuff and blah. The conversation at Rocky made me thought about a lot of things, fer a long long time, into my bedtime. Til the next morning when I woke up, some issues were still in my mind. I couldn decide on the seriousness of the whole matter, nor could I settle on what should I do. When I was happy, I couldn care much for that difference. When the sms came, I thought I was thinking too much. I was very much in a dilemma. That I could only keep to myself. This school vacation gave me a different feeling compared to the previous countless holidays. Perhaps its because of my different status and school environment. The earlier hectic life left me only too thankful to enjoy whatever I have now.
I believe he has lost some weight, much to my delight, well, that is pretty cruel of me. Hee. I know its tough, but you really gotta shed off some of those excess to look better. Lol.

Old friends.

2005-11-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

Good to meet up with old friends. That feeling consoled the part of me that still hasn fully adjust to my new life. Darling yz even took the effort to buy a little choc gift for us. Hee. Fion and yz are still the same old them. One is as blur as ever. And the other always can be so crazy happily thinking about what she hope to be able to do and not thinking about the consequences. I don know if I had changed over these few years. Perhaps one would never know if himself or herself has change unless the degree of transformation is very huge. A little probably only makes a little difference and thats it.
Looking at them, I yearn for a life change. That is normal I guess. . .considering that I may not like my new life as much. There is this urge deep within me, yearning to break free so much. . .for such a long time already.
I know I am nearing what I wish for. Glad.

Post Exams Feelings

2005-11-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

I apologize for letting this space collecting dust for some time. Been busy with exams lately. All ended with a low note today. Pretty dampening. Worst come to worst, flunking it gives me the idea of withdrawing from this entire 3 years big business. Im that pessimistic.
Its weird. How you always feel so drained during the exam period, how you feel life is so unmeaningful and blah. Yet im aint feeling any of those after the paper today. Lots of things on my to do list. Lots of thoughts waiting for me to think about them.
Bitch. Never ever made the effort to clean up my workdesk properly. The enthusiastic feeling only came when I gotta sit in front of the dusty desk and mug. Same for this time round. And I gonna make sure I do it this holiday. But. . .please allow me to glue myself to da telly tonight. Tee hee.

Sucks.

2005-11-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

Life just sucks.

The Exams

2005-10-29T11:50:00.000+08:00

I Hate The Exams!!! Its Depriving Me Of Too Much!!! Simply Toooo Much!!!

The 40 Year Old Virgin.

2005-10-23T10:30:00.000+08:00

I had been much down on my luck recently. Poor health. I don blame that cos I really had too much junk food. Last Friday, I even lost my ezlink card! That was really the limit. Argh. And oh. . .i know the background music is totally uncool for this site. Sorry, no time to look for another one. Will take note. Haha!

The 40 Year Old Virgin proved to be surprisingly light, hilarious and perhaps the moral behind the making of this movie was Good Things Will Come To Those Who WAIT ! Haha. No matter 20 dates, 50 dates, 100 dates or even 200 dates, it will definitely come if its meant to be yours. Its rated M18. . .pretty entertaining, and I could say its worth the price. Catch it. =)

Leaving leisure and relaxation aside, perhaps its really time to be bog down by the tremendous workload. Its time the inertia to start work comes to a halt. But I doubt myself if I can really make it in time. Grr. Sometimes things just get so out of control. And thinking far more ahead, im feeling so much anticipated of the post exams stuff. Aww! All da fun and stuff I can do. With reservations for post examination results anti climax. Wish me plenty of luck.

Really.

2005-10-19T11:15:00.000+08:00

Its Singapore Fashion Week. I have always like looking at the vibrant colors of the apparels featured on magazines and da newspapers. Bet I gonna get an eyeful this time round. *grins

I had been super eager to watch April Snow, but changed my mind. Cos sis watched and her feedback was there wasn any ending to the entire time. Duh. I don like that, so I may not be catching it after all.

***
Freaked out. Don wish to say by what. Anyway, that stress element is deeply induced. I hate expectations. They are scary.

***
I thought things were getting better. No doubt I was wrong. Its getting increasingly chaotic. I keep getting flashbacks. Of people I see on da train. Of the week ahead. Of many many. I need emotional support. please.

Sick.

2005-10-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

The fever came on and off. Darn. Cmon it cant be dengue. I aint got any bites from those blood suckers. Runny nose wont recover wither. And that cough. My doctor is outta Sg currently. He only instructed me to take his prescribed Pi Pa Gao. Lol. Alas, im so lazy to take them frequently. At most, I will jus take them once before I head for bed. Argh!
Another cold typical day today. Digital was pretty interesting. I am referring to the part on erotic blogs. See some of them I linked on this site? Ha. . . anyhow, I jus like the way SPG writes.

Counting down, 3 more days!
Oh. im getting sick of this skin. Gotta change it some time soon. Lalala~

2005-10-16T16:40:00.000+08:00

Bad throat. Fever. Serious flu.

Been pouring the entire day. Brr. . .
Counting down. . . 5 more days. . .

Database War.

2005-10-12T08:20:00.000+08:00

Last night, there was a database war. Struggled so much. Slept only for about 5 hours. This morning I was like a walking zombie. Was sprawning over my single seater sofa when a text was sent to my phone. I raced to the desk to read it. Recharged. Dont know why. You should have guessed who da sender was. Haha.

Duh. . .

2005-10-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, been some time since i posted something. The previous one was put up because I thought it was something arty to compliment my new blogskin. Anyway, I wanna confess here that I am such a food junkie. I guess all along, I have been one, but recently, it has gottten so serious. . .almost every day I have to confront fast foods, ice cream and blah. Getting sick of them already! I want to eat more healthily from now on. *promise.
Oh. And things are still pretty fine. He has been calling back for da past 2 days. Hearing his voice is quite enough. *grins.
*****
So many things to be done. Yet so little time.
*****
my friends.
Saw xin on da train today. Glad. Its been some time since i last saw her. Shes my 10 year or so friend. Good to know shes working at SGH.
And leng. Think you will be able to read this. Happy fer you that you have found your happiness. Hee. Wish you all da best!
And ping. Sorry for not being able to turn up at da bbq. Couldn take da time out. Nonetheless, wish you a early Happy Birthday!

Arty Farty

2005-10-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

Eternal Love.

2005-10-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

Does eternal love exists?

Lives bound to change. Feelings are bound to change. Does love changes too?

Im sad.

2005-10-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

My loved ones are at the receiving ends of my fedup tantrums. Im sorry. Awfully sorry. I don understand whats up with myself. I don know what to do with myself either. Just feel that im not the usual me now. I have to control myself. . . cos I don wanna hurt someone. Someone I care a lot for. I didn mean to make you worry. You know who you are.

Hellish.

2005-09-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

kinda cold today. Its a wet day. Pretty monotone too. Surprisingly, didn feel as sleepy as usual during 4 hours lecturem perhaps cos I had da TP people sitting with me. after that had Mac takeaway with my project mates. The BigMac set meal filled me to da brim, for a moment I thought I was gonna explode. Laughs. Anyway, after some rather empty discussions and fiddling with our lappies, I decided to go home with my dead lappie. Whilst on da train, I tried to catch a wink yet I couldn. Don know why. Not hectic anymore. but hellish and overwhelming. How lousy I am. Still couldn get use to this sorta new life.
Changes just keeping taking place. my doctor is going away, for some time. I have to go get another life. People just come and go. . .
Chatted with an ex classmate from TP over msn yesterday. Anyhow, he gave me new feelings towards life. Sometimes I really do think I am fortunate to have friends who are encouraging. . .

Definition of Love.

2005-09-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

There is this para which I saw from the ST, found it meaningful and thought of sharing it here.

I suspect love is an often temporary chemical imbalance of the brain induced by sensory stimuli that causes us to maintain focus on something that carries an adaptive agenda. Love is an adaptive feeling or emotion. Like hate, jealousy, hunger, thirsts. Necessary where rationality alone would not suffice to carry the day.

I totally agree with this. I leave it to all of you to think about it.

Sick

2005-09-24T12:05:00.000+08:00

Down with a bad throat. Developing into a serious cough.

TYM.

2005-09-22T10:50:00.000+08:00

On my way back from campus yesterday, I met tym. Its been 3 years since I last saw her!!! I was pleasantly surprised! Imagine we have lost contact for the entire 3 years and now we saw each other again! At the Library busstop. Shes a friend from my secondary school. Used to be in the same A.maths tuition class. Shes a loyal one. Hee. And we just yakked all da way til she dropped off at Bedok. Managed to hear lotsa gossips and stories about her. The thing was, beside being happy about bumping into her yesterday, the trip home wasn lonely at all. In fact, it was a quick one. Haha.

Crapz.

2005-09-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

I don know what to feel. Suppose to get rid of one graded marketing presentation today but had to be pushed to next week cos one of my group members down. But. . . hmmm. . . she and the rest spent the whole of their yesterday working on it while I could enjoy the comfort of my home, sending my part to them when I finished. . . and now. . .what came to me were totally different slides that gave a very refreshing feeling. Thanks girls, how I wished I had been part of that altering process but I couldn cos I lived T and all of you lived BP!!! Argh. Saw one group present in class today. Again, felt numb. Cos my group hasn even worked on it. And its like. . .due in 2 weeks time. Grr.

And can you even believe what im doing now? Sitting in the school lab slacking like nobodys business instead of heading the 2 hours way home!!! What has gotten into me?
So restless. . .

Its been ages since I watched da telly.
Its been ages since I spent my Vitamin M carelessly.
Its been ages since I . . .

Be With Me

2005-09-20T18:10:00.000+08:00

Be With Me left me a bit bewildered, yet, still sense that tinge of arty feeling after watching it. Can I call that abstract? Maybe not so. The entire time it was pretty silent with minimal dialogues, mostly depending on the audience to make their head out based on MSN, smses, body language and so on. If you don mind having to hear others chomping on their popcorns and snacks throughout the movie, catch it.

Da da di da da da!

2005-09-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

WKRZ rocks! Its been getting much of publicity recently. Its some sort of being revamped! I have no regrets being its follower right from its birth! So proud of it!!!

Alright, been dropping lotsa hair these days. I guess its because Im so stressed up. Partly due to my faulty laptop. . .took up 2 days of this week to go down to campus to treat its darn errors. Time seemed so little, accomplishments seemed underachieved, social life seemed extremely stagnant, I seemed to revolve in the same place! Eeks.
Time for changes, man! Da da di da da da. . . im in the mood for changes!

The Perfect Catch.

2005-09-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

Been slacking the entire day today!!! Just couldn bring myself to do anything serious, darn, wasted another day. Anyhow, I watched The Perfect Catch last evening. I think its amazing how 2 persons with no blood relations right from the beginning get together in the later stage of life, and its even a miracle when both share different interests and hold different perceptions about life. Feelings deep within are just so magical and I guess no one on this world can exactly explain the logic behind human feelings and etc. . .

Am I tired?

2005-09-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

I guess Im getting a bit tired. . .

Upside down.

2005-09-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

There isnt enough time to do what I want in a day of 24 hours. I have problems letting go of the lifestyle I used to have. It is finally the one week so called break yet its gonna be cramped with assignments and projects. Everything began to turn upside down. Still not sleeping at this hour. Pondering hard. So hard. Im not pretty. My voice sucks. People can actually be the most beautiful and ugligest creatures on this earth, I just realized today, how difficult it is to understand people and accept them for who they are.

Chilly Sunday!!

2005-09-04T16:40:00.000+08:00

Its sorta pleasant for me today. Nothing in particular happened. Perhaps its just the nice cool weather thats making me happy. It would be best to snuggle up in bed on this chilly Sunday and dream away, a pity its not even a possible option for me. . .
But I manged to look at several good blogs this afternoon. . .everytime I read blogs, I would feel that my life is so much tiny compared to the others. . .

Yawnz.

2005-09-03T02:48:00.000+08:00

Yawnz.

1 month.

2005-09-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since I updated this blog. Very much want to share what I have been experiencing for the past week but I felt numb when I wanted to type things down. Too much of a roller coaster I guess. . . school, family, love etc. Lotza internal struggle. This is like. . . the 6 th or 7 th week into the school semester, and now I can safely say I like living on da trains and buses for approximately 3 hours a day, although it can get a bit tiring at times. So much things to do on them. Observe, stare blankly, sleep, read, think, sms and blah. Anyhow, its been getting harder to breathe freely. . .24 hours a day with so much things to do and some things that get on my nerves can almost occupy my lungs. No idea what is it that I exactly want. . .sometimes just find myself pinning away for that feeling, while at times I can be so ATTITUDE. . .as if to hell with it. Life seemed so much messed up than before. Is this for better or for worse?

Thursdays.

2005-08-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

I realised I fell in love with stoning recently. Yup, while on the train. The long journey to and fro home and school. I just din feel like doing anything except to stare into space, not thinking of anything. I dislike it when I dozed off, hit my head against the interior of the train when it jerks, and I awoke to find the opposite persons staring at me. Its as if Im some alien or I got something on my face. Nevertheless, I believe I ill develop a liking to be on the train so frequently. Hall 5 toilet condition worsening . . .when I went back there yesterday to do my final packing. Gross.

I hate Thursdays more and more. The long break before my 430 lecture. I hate it. Things are bound to happen. Why? I don understand. I suspect I got attitude problem. But I couldn care much. I have too much obligations. Yet I don think i will ever regret my decision. Not because no one is in the queue, but because you reached me and I felt something. My personal problem is causing things to quiver? Then I begin to doubt how long more can I hold out. The habit to slack and waste time kicks in. F***. I have yet to start preparing for Econs quiz for da coming Mon. Friends are already holding on to their Econs textbook as if its some bible.

Hate myself. I don know how to make others love me when I simply hate myself and possess zero confidence. Perhaps I don even know how to love others too.

TODAY???

2005-08-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

People often warned not to change for that someone you love dearly because he loves you for who you are.
But a paragraph from an article I saw in yesterday s TODAY hit me. . .it says. . .
You are not the only compatible woman in his entire life. Not until you change and compromise along the way can you become his most compatible.
If you were chosen and married to him, its because you met him earlier. Only benevolence and magnanimity will allow you to keep your man to your last days.
I pondered, and concluded. . .how true!

Japanese graffiti

2005-08-16T17:15:00.000+08:00

Japanese Graffiti

Graffiti in Japan has taken off and can been seen as an art form or causing all kinds of problems.It can be seen just about everywhere and often can be mistaken as one or the other. Many shops now Graffiti their store-fronts as a way to draw customers attention, giving off a Bad Boy image, while other places would use graffiti to make a plain wall look more interesting.The pictures here are of various sorts of graffiti that is found though out the Shibuya district in Tokyo.Can you tell which is unwanted graffiti and which isnt?

I love Tuesdays! My days off! But of course I have lots of things to do. All the same, I enjoy Tuesdays! Received my poly graduation photos today. One full body and the other close up. I expected them to look like shit cos the photographers on that day were so fast in clicking their darn cameras, fortunately, they were not that bad. . . I am not photogenic. I am growing to hate photo taking. =P

I have been traveling to and fro campus these couple of weeks. My room there had been left entirely to my roomie. I have no idea why. . . but I recalled a lady who walked into the cabin I was in and plonked down to the empty seat beside me. She took out her laptop and when her desktop screen came to view, I couldn resist da urge to take a glance at her desktop pic.
Ta da. . .

The wonderful feeling while watching that movie came rushing back to me again! As you can see now, im such a copycat. I went in search of this picture and stored it in my lappie! But im not using it as my desktop pic laR. Lol.

The Magical Chocs.

2005-08-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

Its been a couple of days since I put some heart and soul into blogging. Life has been real hectic, stress at many times, frustrating when things don go my way and so on. Sleep deprived, I already experienced the torture of traveling far to campus, with many more such days ahead. Discovered so much more about myself too. . .im definitely not suited to hostel life. . .when things really seem so dull, I could do with some cheering up when I think of the lovely people around me, and I try to perk myself up and be happier.
His chocolates managed to install some battery into me, but his existence meant far more than that box of magical stuff. Not to forget, I found these girls in my class who added so much laughter to tutorials and group work, we still have quite a long way in this semester together!

Cry.

2005-08-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

I cried so hard. Til the headache sought refuge in me.

Charlie and The Choc Factory.

2005-08-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

Charlie and The Chocolate Factory is a delicious movie, great for both adults and children! Go catch it!

I like the elevator, that is able to bring Willy Wonka to anywhere he wants to!

Sleeping together

2005-08-04T14:15:00.000+08:00

I love the days of the week when I finish classes at 1230, leaving me da rest of the day for myself. The feeling is great. I am actually unsure why I love free time so much, even when it gets bored. Like today, class actually finishes at 1130, though I got a lecture at 430 til 630, Im still feeling happy!

***

The night spent at hostel last night was 1 of da 2 best nights I had over there. As much as I can recall, da previous time was when I was so tired and I jus fell asleep, without much thought. Last night I slept well for a reason. Earlier in da day, Dor & I decided to do some shifting of furnitures in da room. Obviously, she was da one exerting all her energy. Lol. So da new arrangement was. . . our beds were side by side, in fact, its together! Yes, we already slept together. Lol. I felt so much more secure with her by my side. Is it understandable how much security I need when im in a new environment? Anyway, I need tons of it when I stil cant get use to my life being chucked in that room. *wINKz

***

SPG. Yup, sarongpartygirl. I officially announced that I am hooked onto reading her blog. Don know why. Curiousity for her jus multiplied. I just find myself visiting her blog each time I have access to a computer. Dor was just laughing at me a moment ago for being a SPG fan. I actually like SPG thoughts, her language. . .da way she organizes her points into one long entry. . .maybe I should say I don agree with her thoughts totally at times. . . its true. . .not that I am afraid people who dislike her may boycott me after reading this entry. Lol.

Reflect.

2005-08-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

Hardly found time to do some reflection.
Finally. Now.
I feel uprooted. No warmth & safety at hostel. At least I think that way. Yet traveling sucks. All the way from East to West, imagine only being able to get a seat at Tanjong Pagar. I could do with some company, but there wasn any. The only console was when I saw 2 familiar faces, a secondary school teacher & a sweet senior. Alas, it was only on my part in recognizing them.

***

I wish I could say campus rocks. I don wanna tell lies. I wish I was happier. I think someone managed to come into my life. I am glad, yet I am so afraid of uncertainties. But I really appreciate you ;)

***

I don know if I can survive everything & make it til d end, but I know I want to.

Phobia.

2005-07-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

I think I got a phobia.

Still sick.

2005-07-30T18:08:00.000+08:00

Many things happening. Im still sick. Things got a bit messed up in my world and Im not sure if I can handle everything. Too much that I want to share here but I don know where should I start from. Had 3 lectures this week to kickstart the rest of the school semester. Anyway, at this point of time, I think I forgot how to express myself. Side effects of a nap? Promise to update.

Sick.

2005-07-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

I am sick. New environment. Not enough sleep. Culture shock.

School really starting.

2005-07-24T12:35:00.000+08:00

Friday i went back to campus again for the Finale of the orientation. We were blindfolded all night and instructed to do all sorts of things. . .including putting my left hand into a toilet bowl to dig for keys. Eeks. And going under the big underground drain where there is lots of muddy water. . . really had fun though i hate da way i stink and how cold i was that night.
Anyway, school is starting officially tomorrow!!! Feel excited yet a bit lost and overwhelmed .

The Sky.

2005-07-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

Just wanna share something I experienced during the orientation on Tues. Despite the fact that I am already at home, that beautiful picture appeared in my mind time and again.
One of the tasks given was for the guys to carry a stretcher with a person on it while the whole OG ran back to our destination. So. . .as you would have expected, I was chosen to be the person lying on the stretcher cos im the lightest girl in the group. Lol. Hmm. . .shiok to have people carry when Im really dead beat from the tedious running but the thing was. . .while being carried, I got to see the thing I have never seen so clearly before. The sky. The blue sky with slow moving clouds. The blue sky with white clouds and a flock of birds flying past. Simply breathtaking.

2005-07-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

I did a quiz from the following link.
http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Do try it! Heres my result:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

For me, i guess its really pretty accurate!! How about you?

Orientation.

2005-07-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

Im back from orientation. No, I escaped. Cant take it anymore. All play, no rest, bad food. That will kill me if I stayed on. Imagine sleeping at four in the morn and waking up at six plus near seven then proceed to take QET. Sucks. And the old blisters on my feet got worse. . . more swollen than ever. Hope im not going back there. Home is best. Stil kinda cant get use to hostel life. Freakin cold and noisy at night. My stamina sucks. I am dismayed by my color.

Mad rush.

2005-07-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

On a mad rush these couple of days. Lost count of time. No time for da telly.

Busy preparing for orientation & hostel. Promise to update. *wINkz

Yawn.

2005-07-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

Yawn. Boring day. Yet with that tinge of nervous, excitement, blessed. . .

This is a sophisticated one I came across today.

Escrit Metro
This sleek and versatile Escit Metro comes in handy anytime of the day. Comes with magnetic snap closure, silver- tone feet at the bottom and cell phone pocket inside.

Crying Out Love.

2005-07-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

Watched Crying Out Love In The Centre Of The World with dazzed yesterday. On the whole, I gotta say it wasn as good as I had expected. Storyline went too slow for the first 30 to 45 minutes. Things got too dry and I think I did yawn. Lol. But credit gotta be given for several of its touching scenes, so be prepared to shed a few tears!!
And perhaps you may even think your love story made up of smses, phonecalls, emails and etc is nothing, compared to cassette tapes used to exchange sentiments in the movie.
Starring Takao Osawa & Kou Shibusaki. Catch this movie if you are looking for something that can move you to tears & some funny bits. . . oh yeah. . .the fried noodle bread. . .haha. . .

At Hans.

2005-07-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

Finally got to meet up da gang for dinner at Hans on last night. Though its in da name of a small birthday celebration for yp, I guess it felt more of a gathering for da 4 of us. Super silly when we sang da birthday song in almost a whisper to avoid unwanted attention from other diners. Haha. . .we had fun!
The changes made in our lives felt so real. All of us growing up & trying to be in control of our own lives. I cant bear the change. . .It felt sorta losing my sense of belonging. Before I could find another place where I feel right again.

London.

2005-07-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

London s underground train system ripped.
At least 37 dead and 700 hurt.
It was a tragedy from the barbaric behavior of terrorists.
Imagine the roof of a double decker bus flying 10 metres into the air, wrecked by explosion.
Imagine people jumping from the top deck of the bus onto the street in desperation to escape.
Cellphone networks overloaded. Irregular connections.
Chaos.
Life is unpredictable.

I love Penny.

2005-07-07T18:20:00.000+08:00

As broke as can be, I have no regrets buying Penny Dai s Crazy Love album. Out of 13 tracks, I fell in love with 10 of them.
Recommended tracks:
*Amen
*79 89 99

Think im falling prey as a slave to materialism!!!

Kbox.

2005-07-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Went to kbox with K today. Thanks for your company! :)

2005-07-04T18:20:00.000+08:00

Love Is In d Air???

He said love plays a big part in our lives. He dont know why he cant stop thinking of things he gonna do to make her moved to tears. Things like carrying her on his back up the grassy slope, watching the sunset together, going for rides, sit on a giant ferris wheel and he gonna hold her hand and say I love you when their cabin reaches the highest point.
He is ian, the romantic man. Lol.

***
Recommended Reading Material
ST 04 July Life! Section pg 6
Title: Looking for Love that Lasts.

Not many people marry their first loves. But do you really have to date a few times before you are ready to settle down?

Crying out love.

2005-07-03T11:00:00.000+08:00

I want to watch Japan movie Crying Out Love, in the Center of the World!!! The preview tells me that its gonna be a great one.

I want to go get a cd album, shant reveal whose cd I wanna buy first.

I want to . . .
Too many things that I want to do. Hee.

More eye candy for clutch lovers!

Happy!

2005-07-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

Am a happy girl today. :)

A Lot Like Love

2005-06-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hi! Im here to post an entry!! Was in town with dazzed on Tues. We watched A Lot Like Love. Despite da typical plot. I find it a cute, likeable romantic comedy.

Just to make up to those who visited my blog but saw zero new entries for da past few days, maybe I will share with the ladies some of da nicey stuff I came across online today. As for the gentlemen, too bad, just wanna say thanks a lot! MuuaccKs to all of u!!!

Stay tuned!

And. . . this is me and lwy! Cheez!!

Slack.

2005-06-25T18:55:00.000+08:00

I removed the previous green entry because. . .the dinner was cancelled in d end, much to my disappointment, BUT, we will definitely meet up in da next 2 weeks time cos its yp birthday! So much of slacking today. Seeing sis preparing for her exams the coming week. Bobbing along to WKRZ. Confirming a date with dazzed next week. Thinking of what to do tomorrow. And thinking of something else. . .
Guess how i feel through the following pictures.

Chill out everyone. Have a nice weekend!

Up the hill?

2005-06-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

Tired.

Empty

2005-06-22T19:01:00.000+08:00

Im just like an empty glass bottle now. . .

My Fair Lady

2005-06-22T18:40:00.000+08:00

On your speakers everyone!

Just want to keep something you have taught me: We should follow where our hearts take us to and understand each other well. Being together is like growing up together.

Im soOoO much into Korean drama My Fair Lady aired on the telly at 7.30 on Mons and Tues. Koreans have beautiful names. Unlike Singaporeans. Compare Xia Minjing to Ng Mei Hui. LOL. Sorry if this makes any of you want to puke. Im just trying to do a testing on how it sounds. Koreans are always so polite and full of gestures. You should have seen how I behave at home. LOL.

Looming Death

2005-06-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

So much of dying from ian. Brace up! The emptiness in our lives. Never ever thought I would find such an Arian. Nobody elses know what goes on in the heads of us.

He says, The wrong one keeps knocking on his door, the right one keeps passing by. He doesn know when their paths will meet.
All gone to the island that is one degree higher than the main land. . . this para quoted from his smses.

It doesn matter if it makes sense to any of you, because the above are extracts. I know how he felt.
The struggle is deep in me. I allowed it to sink in. . .

Her life is at stake, she is nearing the path of her road. Someone is happy. Someone is devastated. There is anguish in me, not by her looming death, but its by my domestic background. I hate myself. In my chaotic world, I hate my f***ing life. Yet im still trying to brave through. Alone. By myself.

This is a bizarre entry. I don care.

SarongPartyGirl

2005-06-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

And I DO have a value system, and that is to go through life being as true to myself as I possibly can, while never hurting the people that matter to me. I try, oh I try.

-quoted from Sarong Party Girl s blog.

I identify with that statement she made. But it has got nothing to do with her current negative publicity on her posting naked pictures on her blog. I like her blogging style and the way she expresses herself through words. She doesn deserve such treatment from the media, causing her doings to be known to her parents, and forcing her to remove the arty pictures from her dear blog. Im upset. Perhaps sympathize with her. She may not care a hoot, but I will support her quietly here in my corner. I was totally *^%$$#* today, but after some aimless retail therapy, I think im all right again. In life, I guess I have been disappointed most of the time. . . wished I could fly away. . .to a faraway place. . .

Im outta here. Have an early night everyone.

Whack your Boss!

2005-06-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

Guess I wont cut my hair short ever again. Lol. For these couple of days, I still cant really get used to my short hair. Friends were also surprised when they saw my hair. Sis laughed at me. haha

Here is a link to help those who have entered the working society and hate it. Most importantly, they have developed a high level of detest for their boss. Lol. Try it! bet you will feel better! *wiNKz

www.whackyourboss.com

Shopaholic

2005-06-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

Ok. Today I spent a lot of money indeed. Ordered a new pair of spectacles. Levis. Proud of it! And I finally got my court shoes for graduation in july. 80 over bucks for that shoe. =P Saw another pair of shoes i love so much, but din buy it cos it was the display set.

Saw this beautiful clutch while online window shop. 225 bucks!

A stylish reminder of tropical beaches and moonlit nights, the Elle clutch provides a much-needed, must-have shot of colour to your wardrobe this season. A gorgeous palm applique in black adorns the front, giving both contrast and texture. Features vintage fabric lining, spacious interior and a metal frame that snaps open and shut.

Im off for now! Feel so drained from so much shopping!!!

TP seminar

2005-06-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

Finally received the enrolment package today. Suddenly bombarded with information. Lotsa admin things on my to-do list. School is gonna start real soon!

Surfed some e-shops. Found this nice bag, 110 SGD bucks ok!!! I love it! And I will buy it. Yes, in my dreams!

Mae by Emma Gordon
A shopaholic s dream bag made from dusky pink wool. The detail around the top of the bag is made from mushroom canvas and is edged with a fuchsia pink lingerie trim. Three buttons covered in the same dusky pink wool decorate the front. Fastens with a magnetic snap fitting.

I was back in school yesterday. Yes, TP no doubt. All thanks to dazzed, who wanted me to attend an international entrepreneurial buying seminar together. Anyway, the feeling was familiar yet weird. The many new faces made me quite frightened actually. One thing noted was that a larger population was dressy, which if course added more colors to the ever vibrant campus.
As for the seminar, I expected some light hearted talk on the fashion and retail scene. It turned out otherwise. Pretty much in serious mode, lotsa personal traveling experiences and geographical stuff were covered instead. Nevertheless, it was useful time spent.

GSS Reap?

2005-06-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

GSS Reap.

Just as I typed the title of this entry, I thought I should changed it to:
Reap During GSS period.

Why? Easy. Reason being not every item I bought was at GSS discounts! As a matter of fact, many retailers seemed totally unaffected by GSS! There were no promotions, no attempted techniques to boost sales, no nothing!!!

Anyway, I decided that my favorite word for this retail therapy season got to be STOREWIDE. You gotta agree with me how great it feels to see the sales boards printing XX percent STOREWIDE!!!

Into the second week of this eight week sales period, thought I should share some of the stuff I got for myself.

Hair band from mini.bits at 15 percent storewide. I need this to push back da idiot fringes that has been da culprit for several pimples on my forehead recently. Earrings from Bugis. Then I decided I had quite enough of accessories, so im putting a halt to my collection for now.

NIVEA moisturizing milk. Comes with this free 30ml tube. Boy, had quite an adventure when I purchased this. Price was actually tagged lower than it ought to be, so I got this at a lower price. *wiNKz

Other stuff included OP slippers, blouse etc. jeans. . . denim skirt. . . etc.

YOohoO. . . pink straps. . .

C.O.A.X short skirt.

Penniless.

Calling out for keen retail sponsorship to contact me.
Deadline: End of GSS, 24 July.

Arts Fest?

2005-06-04T12:15:00.000+08:00

This picture is put up here for entertainment purposes, in line with da Arts Fest. LoL.

Audio Therapy

2005-05-31T18:25:00.000+08:00

In view of GSS events and activities, this is a special column to help readers ease their shopping tension. Don panic and moan and get so stressed up if you were not able to grab that lovely item you have got your eyes on for sooo long! Tell yourself its just a silly item that does not deserve spending your money on. Just got home from a crazy shopping trip, dying to unwind yourself? Here s my recommendation!

Audio therapy is the solution to help reduce and extinguish the awful effects of social anxiety. It can prevent anxiety from fogging up in your mind and cloud your concentration much longer! It brings on feelings of calmness and peace, soon you will find yourself in better control of your emotions!

Sounds great doesn it? alright, I better let all of you into da real thing now. Just tune in to radio station WKRZ 91.3 FM on Thursday nights from 8 to 10pm, catch KS on Urban Lounge and cool. . . you will be able to relax for a complete 120 minutes session of audio therapy!

WKRZ is one of my favorite FM station cos it provides da newest music. LOl. Catch Suzanne & Cynthia on weekdays morning if you wanna hear their rantings on boys, healthy living and etc. if you are lucky, you may hear some juicy gossips and bLah. I like catching the weekly serving of Masterplate on Saturday nights 9 to 11pm. Recently, I took a liking to Lush99.5. my sis calls them sofa music. Rather, they are chill out music. The music they play makes me feel comfortable. Aint gotta time to check out Lush webbie, but all of you can go to theYOU icon on my blog and click WKRZ under one of my links to check things out! ~_~ v

Recent Korean movie release My Boyfriend is Type B is a fantastic movie. Lead actor and actress Lee Dong Gun and Han Ji Hye respectively are so attractive and cute. The movie is built around the Blood Typing craze that is sweeping Korea s dating scene currently. A rather generic but cheery romantic comedy I would say that adheres to the time tested principle of Opposites Attract. So is blood type the key to true love? Honestly, I don think so, unless I meet someone with B blood type and really feel the selfishness and insensitivity in them as the movie claimed the B guys are. LoL. I would beg to believe in something with more specific categories such as horoscope etc. Anyhow, you should watch this movie definitely!

Spore Men

2005-05-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

Im here to make my presence felt in this expanding blogosphere again!

Pink lovers must have loved the ST Digital Life edition published yesterday. The cover page was totally pink! How I love that! Of course, XiaXue Wendy Cheng s face was there, I reckoned the pink was related to her favorite color, since her blog page was painted in pink too. By now, if you still have no idea who da hell is XX, pardon me, YOU OUGHT TA BE SHOT!

Anyway, here is my latest piece of accessory.

Singapore Men More Brand Conscious Than Women Here.

This title caught my attention. The article was on the Money section of ST yesterday too. Refer to page H16 if you are hungry for details. It was reported that local male shoppers are making their presence felt these days. They are not only stopping at clothes with designer labels, but going the whole hog with skincare regimes and COSMETICS. Yes, I mentioned cosmetics in my May 10 blog entry din I? =)

Awwww! The metrosexuals!

Whatever, it is good to know that people are more conscious of their bodies, hit da gyms, eat & look better & therefore wanting to wear attractive stuff. I actually counted & found 16 pages of men s guide in my Style: mag dated this month.

Look at some men pages. . .

And I found this pic interesting. . . something I call Art. haha

PLUS, for da guys, this webbie is useful . . .

www.newurbanmale.com

On myself, was pleased to meet up with Dor & ping over da weekends. and. . . had lotza craps. . .settles my roomie issue with Dor over lunch at Pasta Mania. Dazzed finally coming back form Beijing tonight!

Anyway, you guys out there have fun for da week ahead. The Great Singapore Sale is just 2 days away!!! stay tuned! *wINkz

Tarots.

2005-05-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

Don fret, I may not update as often but my time on this chaotic earth has not ceased.

Saw the naked and ugly side of this chaotic earth so clearly again.
The misery of living in poverty.
Vying of paper qualifications.
Misunderstanding between people.
The struggle within oneself.

Tell me how to live my life.

I know im already getting sick of this calendar.

Mid week. I found my spiritual dimension empty.
No number of songs on love and peace could appease me. I turned to tarots, hoping to find some guidance. I guess I need more inspiration and belief, gather spiritual will to translate my principles into practice. The bridge between what is heard by the ears and what is comprehended by the mind and spirit.
Productive restructuring of home issues. The card enlightened me to act on when it is time to make a lifestyle change. Otherwise suffer the consequences of incorrect action. My attention was shifted to my roomie issue. I still couldn decide. It wasn something I could make a decision alone, myself. I was reminded of the recognition of self individuation.
Encouraged to use an illumined mind to increase awareness of the universe outside of ourselves, of higher ideals, and wider pursuits, than those of the physical realm.

Karen.

2005-05-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

The past couple of days had been calm and tasteless. Life revolved around my favorite Korean dramas and variety shows. Enjoyed myself pretty much when I hang out woth K.C 3 days ago. We talked about anything and everything under the sun! I am relatively excited about a budding friendship. Glad to know her so much better! K.C, I ll be praying hard for your quarantine ok! Lotza good luck!

Xiaxue

2005-05-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

Blogger had been crowned da best blogging host to start a blog in the 8 May copy of The Sunday Times, scoring a rating of 8.5 over 10, beating competitors such as MSN Spaces, Yahoo! And Friendster. =) Finally there are more media publications that can feed my hungry interest for BLOGS. =D
Then there was this little coverage on one of Singapore s most read bloggers, Xiaxue, in da 8 May edition of zbW too I was kinda surprise that she had managed to get onto the cover page. Really sooo popular is she? I only know that she was the Best Blogger in the 2004 Asia Weblog Awards and I have seen her blog only for less than 10 times in my life. I don have a very good impression of her, I always get a bit agitated when I read her blog. Perhaps its just some harmless reaction towards the contents of her honest blog. My point is, I don like her, and I don hate her too. All the same, I found myself pretty engrossed in reading her zbW cover story. There was this small argumentative part of the cover story on her looking good just because she has makeup on her face. Lol. Now, I have something to say. A little self confession here. I am someone who is used to having minimal makeup on, since secondary school days.
Until today, I have grown to a lady with a disapproving habit of piling on concealer, foundation, blusher, lip gloss etc whenever I step out of the house. Anyway, if you are not pretty naturally, how pretty can you get just by putting on lotsa makeup? Well. . . unless your makeup techniques are sooo good, then I have nothing to say. I still gotta say that cosmetics do work wonders! For myself, I thought I look rather different before and after makeup. No guts to prove it on this blogging ground with pictorial evidences though. Lol.
As for Xiaxue and extending beyond to other celebrities, I guess nakeup are a must haves when facing the media. That is basic courtesy in presenting oneself! Back to Xiaxue, judging from da pictures in the newspapers and her blog, she does have some X factor from a certain angle I must say.
Cosmetics rocks. Period. MuaHahahah.

2 days at hm le!

2005-05-07T11:07:00.000+08:00

Been at home for da past 2 consecutive days. Pretty much in a rush to read my library books. Looking forward to meeting my gang and friends da coming week. And of course not forgetting tomorrow, Happy Mothers Day to my mum.

Today received the NUS admission package. I spend a while of my morn reading the documents. If you read the contents below, you will be surprised that I actually got to open the entire mail myself. Haha.

6/5 Friday

Woken up by my sis darn early. It was like. . . just 5 plus in the morning. I felt my right wrist being tapped repeatedly and she said: Ah Hui! NUS sent you something! I open and see ok? I din even get the chance to respond and I could hear her tearing the envelop already. I was like. . . Grrr. . . in the end, it was just a silly invitation to the FASS @ NUS Day talk, which I am not in the least interested in. Wtf. . . I couldn really return to my la la dreamland after that but still managed to catch a wink til 8 plus.
What I would like to emphasize is that, my family* has got a so called bad habit to satisfy their curiosity for whatever mail found in our letter box. They will just check out the contents of the mail regardless of whose ever s name it bears. As a matter of fact, as long as you are not present when the letter is brought home, you are most likely not able to open your mail yourself.

p.s. family includes me. LoL.

In the evening, received ping sms saying she got herself a job. Congrats. Stil haven got a job reply after sending out 3 resumes! Darn.

5/5 thurs

A very much heavy issue landed on me since the morning. I don noe how to talk about it and don want to talk about it either. I used to tell myself worry is a misuse of imagination but now I couldn stop myself from worrying.
Decided to shrug it off and make myself think of the happier stuff.

4/5 wed

Was at bugis wf lwy. Lotsa GOSSIPS. Hahaha. Of course cant blog it here or else I might get killed outside without knowing why. Then we were inside Mac when my sharp eyes caught CLSF & HK passing by. Wahahah. . . we rushed out and followed the stucktogether couple to give them a surprise. Lol. I felt as if I was part of the paparazzi.

Cut my hair!

2005-05-02T18:13:00.000+08:00

Finally went for a haircut today. Supposedly to be a different hairstyle, but it turned out rather similar, only the bottom part was a little different I guess. My toopid head. Lol. Then there is this side part of the hair that I don like. So, I don like my side view in contrast to my front and back view. Haha. . . its cut already. . . what to do.

2 bags. =)

2005-04-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

Went out for some shopping just now. Bought 2 bags. =P anyway, saw a skirt from U2. so pretty! But din buy it cos there isn any discount. So ex. . . and there was also this bag there I like a lot. Haha. . . on da way back, saw William, I pretended not to see him. Lol. He changed path lor! Also pretend not to see me! Fine. Orange freak. Why da heck he msg me saying he saw me? hahaha. . . craps. . . if u happen to read this entry, congrats for passing all your supps. =)

after 4 days of no entry!

2005-04-30T10:58:00.000+08:00

These days, I feel as if Im in a oven wherever I go. The weather is getting unbearable.
Lemme update what I have been doing for da past couple of days.

27/4 wed
Woke up at seven plus in da am and went to bedok 85 market with mum to buy some stuff. Had an extreme long nap in da noon that gave me some giddy spells in da day later. For da rest of da day, I was almost glued to da telly. Congrats to Mel and yp for securing permanent job positions!

28/4 thur
Sis guitar SYF day. Dor birthday. Rainy day. It was humid like anything. News reported that the scorching weather will persist til da end of may but its raining? Anyway, congrats to sis that they had managed to clinch a Gold medal at d SYF. So my gang and I went to Fishermen Village for dinner plus a little celebration. It had been fun when we sang bday song for Dor, watched her made her wishes and blew da candles. What a pity Mel couldn make it because of work. Catching up with da gang and updating each other on juicy gossips was real hilarious especially when it got to Dor secret dates and connections with a course mate, ssshhhh. . . haha. I really feel guilty now of robbing her mobile to check out her inbox. I apologise here if you ever happen to read this entry. Lol. Forgive me, both of us still have a long way to go, we ll be seeing each other everyday in future. Muahahahah.

29/4 fri
Spent da morning dong dazed purple stuff. Only dazed will know what am I saying here. So, I finally got down to completing it! pass it to you some time soon! Later part of da day was disastrous. I am not willing to mention it. fast forward. . . anyway I went out, then I saw this person. That made me felt even sad. . . so sad for her. . . I got home, looked myself in da mirror and could see da sadness still in my eyes. . .

Xiao Xiang

2005-04-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

So yesterday yp and I went to this food court for lunch. Guess who I saw? Okay, its Xiao Xiang from OCBC Centre, my SIP company. There was this newborn baby an old lady with him was carrying, so I thought it must be his! Suppose to have seen his wife and other family members too. Initially he doesn recognize me but after a while, he greeted me with a nod. I would never dreamt of seeing the bunch of people from ocbc ever since attachment was over. What a surprise! Yp and I were also at the regional library. I picked 3 books home. . . no choice, I gotta read something to pass time. Little money is equal to more time at home and that means a freaking experience in this hot weather! Polar is still not calling, so its time dazzed and I start looking again! Boo.

2005-04-25T10:48:00.000+08:00

A very sian monday. Didnt sleep well last night. For no reasons! I just kept turning and tossing! Boo. . . don look at da dark circles under my eyes. Im still waiting for Polar s job reply. Maybe hopes of getting da job are dashed. Arghhh! Intending to go to the regional library with yp soon. Where am I now? In school lor. . . actually came to zap some stuff and do my things. . . I am going to send my final semster results to NTU today. . . Looking forward to Thursday! It s Doro birthday! We are gonna hang out for a little celebration!!! Cool~
What have I been doing lately? Hmm. . . mostly newspaper reading, job hunting, watched The Interpreter with dazzed. . . etc. The movie was great! Highly recommended!

My lunch on this lazy Sat!

2005-04-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

My lunch for today! :)

From left: Orange juice. Minced meat spaghetti. Yum!

Blog?

2005-04-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

When I find myself exposed to so much publicity on blogs, blogging and bloggers, I decided that blogs will make it big one day soon. I was happily indulged in the fact that I am a blogger, and I own a blog until I read an article in the Straits Times today, of course it is on BLOGS again, when I stopped dead in my blogging fantasy.

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A Blog On Your Character
Source is The Straits Time, Review section Page 25.
Date is 21 Apr 05.

Yea. Why do I blog? What does my blog say about my character? Questions like these made me ponder hard. This is the first time, in view that my blog will officially be a one year old site this coming May. I started blogging because I read of it in the papers during that school term holiday last year. Curiosity and having too much time on hand led to the birth of this site. Somehow, entries after entries here made it unbearable for me to forsake it. It became some sort of project in my life, as I updated it regularly, whether I am a person with an interesting life or not. I gotta admit that I do sense pride in myself as I see the number of hits on the blog counter grew gradually, although the rise is not that impressive. Then I found more reasons to keep the blog, because there are friends who are bloggers too. I want to feel connected to them, I will fork time to read theirs. And it is inevitable that I will occasionally persuade the non-bloggers friends to start one. Haha. One of them, ping, rejected, saying that she doesn want people to know her feelings. Lol. But that doesn keep her from revealing some of her feelings to me when we hang out of course. Lastly, I have attached feelings to this blog already. Chances are, I will just keep blogging for the rest of my life.
I have friends asking me if the contents of my blog are genuine or valid or not. Of course they are. They are 100 percent factual. Haha. Of course the identities mentioned are sometimes censored lar. . . to keep away from any potential fuss and hoo haa etc. the contents come deep inside from me. hmmm. . . 98 per cent represents me. while the other 2 per cent are most likely to be non sincere comments and words made on the verge of extreme emotions. Haha.
If you have already come up with another reason why I am blogging here, yes, I have to pass time. For all you know, I am still a jobless lady waiting to pounce on any good job opportunity to pass another of my 3 months freelance period. * laughs *

Looking forward to a new hairstyle.

2005-04-17T12:56:00.000+08:00

Planning to get an exciting haircut some time soon. I want short hair.

Grow taller!

2005-04-15T15:58:00.000+08:00

Today went back to school for the course gathering. The attendance was not bad initially but after the lunch quite a handful of people slipped away. Anyway, I bought a book Image Quotient from the speaker. . . seems useful if Im going to the working society later on and needs to go for interviews. Had to fork out 13 bucks for that. Nothing much went on at the gathering. It felt special when all of us were told to stand up, hold hands with each other and sing If We Hold On together. That part made me missed my choir days when I got to sing together with so many people. . .

Anger management. So. . . I have this friend who is supposedly able to hide his anger from people around him. He is also a very loyal Steph Sun fan. According to him, he will walk away if he is angry. And he said it is better to have people respect you rather than your fears. Makes sense. But. . . Im going to try all ways to make him show his anger and break his record. Haha. . . my first weapon. Hey, grow taller lei! LOL.

Under Construction

2005-04-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

Under Construction.

Pizza!

2005-04-14T18:59:00.001+08:00

Went to NTUC at TM yesterday and bought ingredients for making pizzas. So I stayed home today to make my pizzas. Haha. . .

Here is my product! The taste is not bad wor! But the crust is not really up to standard. I need to think of some way to improve it. =)

Mum helped me cut it up and placed them on plate. You want a slice? Hehe. . . am still waiting for sis to come home and try them!

More Candies!

2005-04-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

Strawberry jelly bean wrapped with chocolate!

Strawberry on top of chocolate!

Delifrance

2005-04-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

Went job hunting with Ping today. Deli only offering 3.80 bucks! Go home sleep laR!

NTU

2005-04-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

I feel lucky. Im going to NTU!

more pics

2005-04-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

About to lose my identity this long vacation. Gotta look for a new me again.

Plagued with a mild headache this rainy day. Everything wasn going too well for me. Read the newspapers and made a note of the TV programs I gonna watch today. Heres a sneak preview. . .

7.15pm Expresso Single on CH U

7.30 to 8.30pm Good Luck! On CH U by Takuya Kimura

9.15 to 10pm Say Cheez on CH U by Fiona Xie and Jeff Wang

10 to 11pm Desperate Housewives on CH 5

The main redeo station which I tuned in today is Lush 99.5fm. they have great music!

Especially bothered by my further education. Perhaps I shouldn waste money by doing something which I don have a lot of interest in. . . but receiving a lecturer advice perked me up again!

Am recovering well too. Cant wait to get out of da house already. These are da stuff that kept me going for da past one week.

The newspapers. Especially the Life! Section. =)

My Style magazines, which were dated dec04 and jan05. lol. Will buy a new issue soon.

Of course theres my jpop cd album.

As what I have promised in the earlier entries to show all of u my stuff. . .
The white beadie bracelet was from Mel. The silver chain wf a heart was from Ling. The other 2 pairs of earrings were what I bought fer myself. Sis said they looked like cheap junks. Duh. . .

And tts what da gang gave me from Jo Craft at Bugis. Sorry my pic sucks wf my lousy cam. =P

Thanks Ian

2005-04-02T13:13:00.000+08:00

A special entry here to thank Ian for the music playing on my blog now! Thanks! I like it!

I got admitted into NUS. . . but I don like it.

Post bdae entry!

2005-03-31T18:35:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa! Some updates on my birthday. Friends from near and far sent their wishes and I had been clearly touched by some whom I thought would have forgotten about me. cmon! They ranged from my primary school to my polytechnic friends! Nevertheless, tanks a lot! I appreciate it! That day was just some typical shopping trip with my family. I got myself a Super Jpop Ballade cd album. The songs were very nice. I also bought a gio green top, perlini earrings, Doritos big pack of chips and of course made my bdae wishes and ate my chocolate cake. =)
On the 30 th, had my surgery which will ground me for a week before I can go meet the chaotic world again. Im sad, cos I had actually got a job lobang waiting for me and I had to be at home instead of making a dash for that available job vacancy. Then again, the surgery experience was kinda bad, the process got on my nerves, but I was aware that I was actually quite numb towards da whole thingy since this was not da first time. For those of you close enough to me, you would have known what the surgery was all about and hey, this will be my last one!
This week I gonna survive by the side of the tv, my hi fi, phone and the com. Please! If you are bored or whatever, gimme an sms! We can jolly well entertain each other! Muhahaha.
And if any of you had been reading today papers, you ought to be shot if you din catch this bad news! Prices for movie tickets are going up this May! Boo. Cmon msia movie tickets only cost 2.50 bucks! Argh. Standard of living is really going up, up and up. Soon, I wont be able to live on this expensive Earth anymore. Sobz.

28 march

2005-03-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

Im dead beat. Met my gang at 11 today and I reached home at 8 plus. Hmm. Before I met them I went to Four Leaves for a walk in interview. Sucks. They are only giving 4.50 bucks per hour. Im gonna give it a miss. We went to tm Phin s for lunch. I had fish and chips. I thought the standard of the food was okay only, not very impressive. However, the veg soup and da garlic bread was fantastic. I loved the ice lemon tea too. =) the portion of the food were considered quite large, obviously, I couldn finish them all and soon, u can expect me cutting up da food on plate and forcing them on my gangs plates. LOL. They gave me a necklace with green and yellow like crystals. I love it! cos I took a liking to green color recently. mel gave me a bracelet with many white beads! =) will take snaps of them and put them up here another day ok! We also took a few pictures at Phins. thanks dor, the 2 pings, mel, ghed and swee! Im spoilt with so many accessories! On top of that, they treated me to movie! We watched Miss Congeniality. God! I strongly recommend it to those of you who haven watched it! its hilarious and at da same time, there were moments that could reach to your heart and touch you. After that, only ping and me made da way down to Orchard to do some window shopping. Hmm. It was an enjoyable time just da two of us there. We roamed Hereen, cineleisure and far east. Err. . . I bought 2 pairs of earrings at cine. 5 bucks. =P u can say I cant get enough of accessories. If it gets out of hand one day, I gotta say it’s a sin. So I beta start to control myself. For now, all I can feel is. . . my birthday is tomorrow!!!

At da Airport

2005-03-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

I am so so so so so HAPPY!!!!! All my exams ended on a final note today!!!! Guess da results will be quite disastrous, cos somehow. . . da questions asked really got me down. Arhghhh. Forget it. today my whole gang went to da airport fer lunch! Mel and I tried Wild Olives~ not too bad~ den we came back to Tamp lor~ cos wanted to leave some programs fer da coming Monday~ yeah! They are going to celebrate my birthday with me, though not on the actual day cos tts for my family day. Lol. By da way, received Priscilla and Ling bday presents~ tanks a lot guys! Love ya~ tanks fer remembering me and my day! *beams * I am turning 20. hate da digit 2. means I am getting old. Means I am at another cross point in my life again. Means I have to make lotsa choices again. I don like it. but I still have to. Boo.

Rui Chen Birthday.

2005-03-13T10:08:00.000+08:00

Went to attend rui chen house yesterday cos it was his bdae buffet. Kindda boring! =P

Mel Birthday.

2005-03-10T21:07:00.001+08:00

It was my last day in school attending lectures and tutorials today. Sad! cos gotta end TP life with the lecturer I hated most! The law lecturer! Anyway, I took revenge when she handed out survey forms for us to feedback on her! lol. My gang would know what I had done. Curious? I shaded lots of disagree options which would point negative fingers at her. hehe. Evil aint I? Thats what my proj group members often label me. hee. Another sad thing was that we din do that well in our law project. Sucks. But heck. What else? Lotsa picture taking happening today. Cos my class got no lessons tomorrow! Our study week commence unofficially tomorrow! Hmm. . . not to leave out, mels birthday today! We gave her a sweet musical box that has got a pink heart turning round when its being played. So sweeeeet! She can also put in all her little accessories inside. =) after classes, dor & ping went to engine to catch da talk on SIA. I hate it. cos I don qualify to be an air stewardess! Minimum height of 1.58 and pretty face. I don possess them. Boo. But I saw Fion, better known as Xiuli my secondary classmate there! She told me she wanted to apply. I know she can make it. cool~ I will be having an air stewardess as a fren soon. Muahahhaha. Back to my gang, after da talk, we went to tm and cs to shop around. I din buy anything. No mood to kill my wallet. The rest did make small purchases. Mel checked out Sistic and was darn interested in watching da London Community Gospel Choir sing on 15 mar. da most attractive thing was they offer 50 per cent discount to students. Da price after discount was 24 bucks. Mel couldn find someone to go with her. I was so pai seh. . .i was d only one with choir background there. Actually I don mind going with her but don noe lei. . .somehow I din wan to slot programs into my study week. So I rejected. =P she made several calls to her other frens who couldn make it either. Guess she may be dragging her sis along. Hmm. At craft jewelry, I saw this pair of dangle earrings so beautiful with GREEN beads! It costs 12 bucks. . was so tempted to bring it home but I spotted some flaws on the earrings so. . gone case. -_- while still at da shop, mel sudd told me, eh I bought ur bdae present le. I was like. . . oh u din share with da rest meh? she said no lei. I will buy it alone. I very good one. I was like. . .ok. curious what she would buy me. hee. We had more fun when we settled down at da food junction at cs. We only had desserts and wafers there cos mel was suppose to get home to have dinner and have her small family birthday celebration. We already attacked da cold stuff when we realized, SHIT, forgot to take pictures of da pretty edibles! Wahhahaa~ anyway, ping quickly brought out her digital cam and we had da silliest pics taken, posing wf da spoons and melted stuff. =P So long an entry! Off to dinner now! My first paper on da 22 nd and end on da 26 th. Wish me lotsa luck.

Duh.

2005-03-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

Taking time from an one hour break in school to put an entry. Talked a lot over lunch today with Mel, Yanp and CL. CL had lots of experience and exposure to this chaotic world I thought to be. I learnt a lot from her, which made me into a person who decided not to be overreacted with Dor s ridiculous temper today. Obviously, Ling and me saw da ugly side of our course mates. Including my gang and blah. Perhaps its da PRE anxious phenomenon of our nearing graduation, in 2 weeks time. Arghh. Time to move on and get a new life with more friends. Tomorrows Mel birthday. Happy Birthday Mel~ =)
Im off to tutorial now!